Thursday, October 21, 2010

I ♥ Autumn, Yet it is the hardest season

colors, sun, and a chill in the air....
leaves changing and leaves falling
hay rides, pumpkins, trick or treat, happy turkey day,
cheering, jeering, celebrating, losing,
notre dame v. navy, hospital, death...
Four years later and I miss him more than ever...

"Dear Dad:
Thanks, for whispering an idea in Abby's ear today to start 'mud ball' game with her sister.
Did you laugh when you saw Madi covered in mud?
Or did you laugh more when Rebecca asked Abby
'How come your sister is covered in mud and you are not?'
I am sure that you whispered her answer: "mom, i can throw farther than she can"
I am sure you heard the laughs and giggles come from my girls
and I know it brought a smile to your face... Thanks!
I wish they could feel your strong hands wrap them up the way you used to with me.
I am trying to be loving, strong, caring, and all that you stood for in front of my girls.
I will never understand why you aren't here, but thanks for reaching out today...
In case I haven't said in a while... I love you and miss you!
Hope to see you soon!!!"

"Handsome smiles wearing handsome shoes,
Too young to say, though I swear he knew,
And I hear him singing while he sits there in his chair,
Now these autumn leaves float around everywhere."
(Autumn by Paolo Nutini)